I have a final tomorrow that I fully expect to bomb.
I got my long-awaited thesis comments back today. One of my readers misread my entire argument. Of course it's the one who chose to remain anonymous, so I can't even talk to them about it. So much of my heart and soul and sanity poured into that stupid paper, and now I'm having a really hard time convincing myself that I produced anything worthwhile.
I feel... empty tonight. Adrift. I'm tired of going through the motions, sleepwalking my way through school because I don't know what else to do with myself. I feel consumed by apathy, empty and weighted down all at once.
Alone and tired and confused. Just want to snuggle with a boy in a giant comfy bed and never have to think again. Strange-- I used to really like thinking. How sad.
I got my long-awaited thesis comments back today. One of my readers misread my entire argument. Of course it's the one who chose to remain anonymous, so I can't even talk to them about it. So much of my heart and soul and sanity poured into that stupid paper, and now I'm having a really hard time convincing myself that I produced anything worthwhile.
I feel... empty tonight. Adrift. I'm tired of going through the motions, sleepwalking my way through school because I don't know what else to do with myself. I feel consumed by apathy, empty and weighted down all at once.
Alone and tired and confused. Just want to snuggle with a boy in a giant comfy bed and never have to think again. Strange-- I used to really like thinking. How sad.
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Date: 2004-04-21 12:58 am (UTC)Hang in there, Melanie.
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Date: 2004-04-21 06:27 am (UTC)Did the others get it?
Good luck, Brave Warrior.
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Date: 2004-04-21 06:42 am (UTC)**Strange-- I used to really like thinking** So did I. Then I realized that I still do, I just don't like thinking about things people tell me about. =)
We're almost done!
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Date: 2004-04-21 02:51 pm (UTC)